Impatient with my kids.
Behind on my housework.
Getting up early and going to bed late... burning the candle on both ends, ya know?
It ain't pretty.
As a matter of fact, I'm pretty sure my face has sagged another centimeter or so this week just from being grumpy. Is that possible?
And in the midst of this I've been worried about blogging. Something I do for fun.
My dear sweet friend Heidi posted something on her blog last week that's been playing like a broken record in my mind ever since.
"Do not give away to otherswhat you have not first given away at home."
Oy vey, I am guilty of that.
I do it all. the. time.
Give away my patience, my creativity, my sense of humor, my attention, and then grump at my family when they need something from me because there isn't anything left.
So I'm giving myself the week off from blogging.
I am going to smooch my baby whose really not a baby any more.
I am going to play polar bears with Rowan.
I am going to do some crafts with Greyson and read him the spider books we got at the library.
I am going to play a board game with Haydn.
I am going to work on the website for my husband's business, which he has been so patiently waiting for while I make headers and blog buttons for other people.
And I'm going to dust off my Bible, because it's been pretty neglected for a while.
I was thinking today about the fact that I put God in a box. I define the parameters of what I believe He can do, and how He will act, and then I expect Him to behave accordingly. But God is not a genie in a bottle, and I don't get to rub the lamp and request His presence just when I need something. He is so much bigger than the box, or the bottle, or whatever device I've been trying to contain Him in.
I'm ready to get small, so He can get big.
I hope you guys have an awesome week. I'll be back soon, refreshed and hopefully less saggy in the face.